Writing for Joy

I find myself sitting here in front of the laptop with my fingers gently touching the keyboard, and I am unsure if I will be able to push down the letters and form them into words that will make sense to anyone other than myself. I've done this quite a few times over the past few years and each time, I never found the strength and focus to press the first letter key to start. As I sit with the weight of my fingers pressed on the smooth black and white keys, my mind wanders to things I want to say, and then I debate with myself whether or not I will have the courage to say them. The thing about writing is that while it may be entertaining to some, I write because it's the best way to cleanse my own soul. Years ago when my children were little I blogged. This was before the days of Facebook and back when I had moved away from home and my husband was always gone with work, and I found myself wanting to share my children's childhood with others. Mostly, I wanted to record their childhood with pictures and stories because I had great fear that something would happen to me and there would not be anyone around to tell them what their childhood was like. I wanted them to have access to their memories through my eyes as a new mother. I wanted them to know how much I loved and cared for them even. Later, Facebook happened, and I found a new faster way to connect with others. 1 son turned to 2 and then we came a daughter. We were constantly moving and on the go, and the writing stopped but the thoughts and ideas and my head continued.

Writing helps me process my life. It's the place where I find calm in the middle of my life's storms. It gives me a safe haven to throw out my thoughts, and then come back to revisit them when my mind is in a different state. I think it's time to let go and use the letter keys to not only find but to share my joy. Stay Tuned.......